One more day until I can get back to the studio, as its just me and one other person and we work in different rooms its not going to be an issue.
During this time of Lockdown I have made a handful of songs and not really done any typing in the regard of WordPress, apart from scoring lyrics and the occasional note.
This time of lockdown has also had a positive effect on me and changed my perception of freedom and what it means to me. I drink much less than I used to and am cutting down smoking to a point that I have half a rollie every two to three hours. In the morning I notice that the cigarette tastes like c**p but it makes me think, “have I been smoking something which tastes this bad for a long duration of time”…Hell knows what it smells like as second hand smoke….
The first piece I wrote was called “Optimism” which was based on the unfolding of the situation we face and how to deal with the new measures. I talk about the empty streets, buses and stations, there is a nod to the MD’s, GP’s and nurses in there as well. I do talk lightly on my mental health as well, which started degrading. Optimism
I wrote a few tracks called Ray of light, Tunnel of love, Electronic love, but I always found myself talking or singing about SARSCoV2 (Covid-19), and felt I was beating a very dead horse, actually into a complete pulp. So I looked at myself to figure out why my musical output was so depressing and melancholy, in some respects some of my output sounded more depressing than listening to “Lazarus by David Bowie” or “Perfect day by Lou Reed”. I was sad, so sad that I was missing my partner of nearly 12 years, 11 years since I moved in with him. He had to Canada to sort out funeral arrangements for his mother, as she was admitted to hospital twice since November 2019 and ultimately died from malpractice! She was given Aspirin, when she had a severe blood condition, and died of internal bleeding. So he got stuck in Canada for six weeks as they cancelled all the flights, and the UK was only letting limited flights into Heathrow. He got back safely a month ago and did his 14 isolation and after a month he’s fine.
So I rewrote a few tracks, which included “Give up the Fight Acoustic“, which is about giving up feelings of negativity and external stimulus, “When It Just Doesn’t Work Any More” which is about me giving up drinking and smoking tobacco. “Running Scared” which is going to be have added lyrics and added to the “Dystopian Series” I.E: “Dystopian peace” and “Optic State”. I remade the “The Game of Life” which was a song I made back in 2007 and recorded in 2009 (when there were six billion people in the world, so I had to update the lyrics).
I also released a few songs using live vocals to backing tracks on YouTube so here is “Freedom” which is a song about getting away from substance abuse. I did a version of my girl MX7 and Optimism but its really hard to sing in front of a camera while being on the dosage of Diazepam I am on.
Here is the Logic recorded version of “My Girl MX7” this will be my final version of this song as I have done about ten versions of this song and it’s getting a bit boring. So I am learning new chord structures and will hopefully be able to do somethings in 7ths and 9ths, I want to look into 13th’s but Im not sure they sound good.
But on NewGround’s with my partners mother in hospital with liver disease and been given three to six month to live we were both feeling very depressed, so I released this turd “My Ultimate Sadness“, this is not usually what I feel like but the situation was dire.
So I also have a load of other material I have been working on and will release more happier and positive works in the near future. I am Working on a track called “The Reality” which is about moving forward and a vision of the future. “Carry on with the Groove” will be released in the next few days when It gets a decent mix down, as the vocals are all over the place at the moment.
Thats all I have to report at the moment and will be comparing the best DAW for myself as I have both Cubase 8 and Logic Pro X 19 to choose from. Logic seems cleaner but I know Cubase like the back of my hand and seems to be easier for me to sequence in.
Anyway my six year old i5 pc is still going strong and am looking to upgrade but it will take four to five months to save up that kind of money. Plus we need other stuff at the moment like a new kitchen appliances, washing machine and cooker. I also want to get a dedicated studio desk, which costs £370 which I could do if I saved my money for two to three months. But it comes from Thomann.de so it would take months to get to me in the current climate. But it comes with two 19″ racks so I can rack my PC and Digidesign 002 Sound card (I know its prehistoric but it works fine). I just need to order two 3U draws and a power conditioner, so it will eliminate some of the hiss I get through my monitor system.
I also want to get a patch bay, with both XLR and 1/4″ Jack sockets which I will label so I don’t have to consistently go around the back of my sound card. I will probably will get TRS connectors, but not sure if they completely work as my sound card only has XLR and separate 1/4″ jack connectors. I also want to get a small sized valve mixer but only have seen a ART one which is £200, but ART are okayish, but if I got the money together Id rather get a small SSL desk and get its own table just for the mixer as I think the smallest SSL desk is 16 channel.